Instruction Manual

I have thought many times that I wish there was an instruction manual for parenting. There are so many situations where I am just not sure what the best course of action is. My knowledge and experience don't always give me enough resources to draw from.

We have a sick little girl right now. She has been into the doctor/hospital 6 times in the last month and a half. Today will make 7. I was so hoping to be done worrying about this. I guess that's silly, I will always be worrying about one thing or another as a mother. But this, I am so tired from worrying about this. My mind seems to have gone over and over every facet of this until all of the edges are worn and smooth and it can hardly muster up the energy to continue worrying about this.

Kedar gave her a priesthood blessing this morning. It was tender and comforting and she slept peacefully through it. It reminded me of when I was pregnant with her, still carrying her close to my heart, when all of her little kicks and nudges were so familiar to me. There was a morning when Kedar woke me up very early from a sound sleep. We had been worrying about an ultrasound that I had, and he felt that he needed to give our baby a blessing. That was when we knew what her name would be, that was the first time that she was called by her full name: Aubrey Lyn. And that was when we knew that everything would be alright.

Everything will be alright.